BUS 110 W4 Reflection

    Have you taken the time to sit down and write out who you want to become? If you haven't, I suggest that you do. One of my assignments this week was to write a "Core Value Statement" and compare who I am to who I want to be, then make a plan to get to the goal. This was such a challenging assignment because I had to really look at myself in a critical way - which leads to some hurt feelings. Yes, I hurt my own feelings 😂 But I have been able to talk through some of the feelings that came up and I have really been able to focus on becoming a better version of myself. I want to share part of the assignment here so you have a little context and a better understanding of my thought process.

    Pondering these questions: “who do I want to become” and “how would I describe the person I am right now?”, I am vulnerable. The person I am now is a vast improvement from who I was. I am stronger in my decisions and the person I want to show the world. I am confident in my relationship with my husband and friends (most of the time, but that’s my fault, not theirs). At the same time, I am a harsh taskmaster. I have a strong desire, almost a need, for things to go a specific way and when things fall short, I am very quick to change it or call others to task to fix it. I am confident in my skills to learn, but I am not so confident in my ability to make something great happen from that education. Who do I want to be? She is a magnificent, kind, educated, adventurous, faithful, wife, mother, and friend who is confident in her ability to teach with kindness and zest.

    I think that one of the biggest things I took away from the lesson this week is to make a decision, align it with my plan to become better, then work toward it no matter what. I need to remember that what other people see is not what I imagine in my head and not everyone is judging me as harshly as I am judging myself. I have to love myself before I look for the love and admiration of others. 

    In the book Launching Leaders, chapter 11 focuses on giving back. There is a quote that stands out on how to find ways to serve. "There really are limitless ways to serve. The trick is to identify your passions and skills, and then use God's guidance to find ways to use your gifts to make somebody else's life a little bit better." When it comes to serving, I find that it is difficult for me to break out of my lazy lifestyle. I think that to become a better "me" though, I need to remember that serving and improving should go together and I can find ways to do that through my talents and not feel like I have to be just like everyone else.